happiness or sadness?

im confused about something....
something important
something tht i loved and i care


i dnt wanna lose it

but i need 2 do tht...i have 2 lose it 2 follow ma dream

ma dream is important 2 me and my famz



but....

i really dunno
i love it
i wanna keep it
i dnt want 2 lose it
i wanna make it mine forever and ever



but tht make me a selfish girl
but without it im useless
but without it i cant move on


i love it like it was a part of my body...part of my live...part of my dreams


i dnt want 2 lose it anymore

i already lose it once
i dont wanna 2 repeat same mistake i done last time

do i need 2 keep it or lose it?

if i keep it maybe i can be happy forever
but thts gonna help me on my dream


if i lose it maybe im gonna sad forever
but i can reach my dream if i lose is


im really confused....

now i got this pain really bad...i want 2 lose it but without killing me....

i dnt knw wht should i do anymore right now...
i just need someone 2 support me when ever i sad


i want somebody 2 accept me from who i am

everytime i said 'im fine'
i want their 2 see me deeply and said 'tell me the truth'


this is my eternity story...